Feels like everything’s over,
I want to start a new life…
‘Coz there’s nothing left to live for,
With myself I was at strife.
With my vision blurred,
My destiny out of sight…
My life is a blend of emotions,
Endeavoring love and light…
Looking for a boat,
To float into the sea,
To help me fight the emotions
And find my destiny.
Now I’m stranded at the shore,
For the boats are all gone…
Waiting for tomorrow
I’m weeping all alone.
I expected tomorrow
The boats would come,
And take me to a place
Where I could feel at home. (comfortable, not fearing anything)
Every day I said to myself,
“There will be a new day.
Your misery will end.
You will find a way”.
Seconds turned to minutes,
And minutes turned to hours,
And hours swayed.
Days became months,
Months became years,
But the misery stayed.
I tried hard to run
But the sand was so soft
I left footprints in the sand
And fell down oft’.
A lesson I learnt
That if you try to run
From yourself or your mistakes,
You fall down for sure
And only your life it stakes.
So, at the shore I stayed
Tried to tumble my way out
Made castles in the sand
And ran all about.
All this while, the sun was watching me.
Shining bright and pitying me.
Thinking, smirking, “what a silly girl,
No wonder her life is such a swirl.”
When it was time for sunset,
The sun said to me,
“I’ll come back tomorrow,
A new day you’ll see”.
The sun came back as promised;
With a new day, a new dawn…
It filled my life with colors;
And said, “Life goes on and on…”
I said, “Dear sun,
“I want to get out of here.
But I need a boat,
‘Coz it’s the waves I fear!”
“Throw yourself into the stormy sea…
Let yourself float…
Set yourself free…
Don’t be afraid if you can’t swim,
For it’s the waves that will take you
To your destiny!”.
I stared at the waves streaming low and high.
I said to the sun with a trembling sigh,
“But if it’s the waves that let you drown and die,
I don’t know what else there is, left to live for…
For I’m a bird without wings, that cannot even fly!
“You’re no bird!”, said the sun to me,
“To your happiness, in you lies the key.
Look deep in your soul
And search for the key.
It will lead you to happiness,
And your destiny.”
I said, “I’m a bird that wants to fly.
What you say is all a lie!
I’m a bird, but without wings.
I do not care for worldly things.(emotional craving)
I want to be where I can call home,
I don’t want to live in your sand castle dome.
I know you have been watching me all this time,
But why have you been all so mime”.
“I realized you wanted to be left alone,
To loathe your past.
I just prayed in silence that you may find hope,
That your misery wouldn’t last”.
Life is full of surprises, I realized.
Being lonely I despised.
But what the sun said made perfect sense
So, what I believed was all nonsense??
I realized that the sun did care.
It did all the thinking and had time to spare,
To watch me grow out of my misery,
To learn to walk on the sand.
It helped me by not helping me
By not lending a helping hand.
‘Coz it wanted me to grow on my own
So I would trust myself when I’m alone
I thanked the sun for doing so.
And prayed that now it would let me go.
“I’ve been looking for people all about,
Tell my story, to pour my soul out.
I’ve been so lonely, you do not know,
A lightened path I beg you show.
Where there are people all around,
And the waves and wind play a soothing sound.
Where all I want, happens to be,
That place would be my destiny”.
“You’re a silly girl indeed!
You cannot get everything in life.
If you ever realized it before,
You would never be at strife.
Be happy with what you already have,
Do not greed for more.
If there’s a boat nearby and you pray for the ship,
You will always be stranded ashore”.
“But that’s not what I really meant,
I’ve done nothing that I resent.
All I want is to move ahead in life,
But I got nothing I ever wanted,
I wanted to kill myself with a knife!”
“You’re indeed a silly girl.
No wonder your life is such a swirl.
I’ll give you an advice for free,
I’ll send you on a hunting spree.
Wait for the moon on a starry night,
When it lights your path and glows bright.
It will lead you a path where angels tread,
That’s where you will find your mantra to move ahead.
But you will have to walk all alone,
Go only where the moon shone.
Carefully tread as you may be led astray,
Even while the moon may be lighting your way!
For with angels demons tread,
With human blood they are fed.
The only way to stay safe,
Is to wear this golden cloak.
Then you will be strong
As the mighty oak.
This golden cloak of duty,
Tranquility and peace,
Will keep you headed on the right path,
All in one piece.
You will bear the fruits of wisdom,
On your journey to the core. (Soul)
But be sure not to pluck them,
Till you safely reach ashore”. (till you find the key).
At night the moon arrived
To take me to a land of dreams,
Where the glowing path was so magical
All around were glistening streams.
I followed the moon in silence.
It all seemed like a dream.
Suddenly, the moon stopped shining
Till we reached a stream.
My feet trembled beneath,
My heart raced loud.
What then seemed so magical,
Was instantly drained by the cloud.
It started to pour,
The moon had to go.
It promised a path,
It would come back and show.
I wondered if the moon
Would ever come back,
The sun had left me
And now the rain attack!!
But by now I knew,
There would be a tomorrow.
The sun would come back (now, missing the sun)
And there would be no sorrow.
I wore the cloak of tranquil, gold;
Just as the sun had told.
It made no difference, the cloak.
Didn’t make me feel as mighty as the Oak.
How foolish I was to believe,
What a piece of cloth would make me feel.
I could now sense the suns’ deceive,
As our conversations replayed on my mind’s reel.
As bold as the mighty Oak??
One couldn’t be mighty just wearing a cloak.
There should be more than meets the eye.
I thought I had believed a lie. (confusion, maybe the sun was right)
In darkness I trembled,
I walked this path
Just for sake.
For I wanted to escape the emotions,
I wanted to get out.
Not wanting to make more sand castles
And running all about.
I had been so lonely…
Had made a friend…
I missed the sun now…
I felt it was the end.
By the time I woke up it was already noon
I wondered where it disappeared, the moon
As promised, would it ever come?
I wondered what I had become. (questioning and doubting self, self pity)
I walked around, enthusiastically
Waiting was so hard…
While rambling, I figured,
It was a boulevard!!
Where the stream flowed,
And there were mountains high;
When will I get across?
I wondered with a sigh!
I walked, and I walked alone
In the boulevard, Alas!
The dreams were shattered.
They were shattered like glass!
I walk alone in the boulevard
Of broken dreams.
In darkness, I’m afraid…
I hear voices and screams…
I’m trembling, and tired
Missing the sun I so admired
Missing the moon’s glowing beauty.
I realized I’m wearing the golden cloak of duty.
It’s my own duty
to move ahead.
To fulfill my dreams
I shouldn’t be afraid.
I can see a long road
Unwinding in front of me.
I have a long way to go.
I must reach my destiny.
Forgetting what the sun,
To me had said,
I tried to run in darkness,
And nimbly move ahead.
I’m so tired and sleepy
I can take no more
I want to run home
Not back to the shore
My dreams were piled up in a heap.
All I wanted to do was sleep.
But the sun’s promise I was to keep,
And I had miles to go before I sleep.
I tried to run
But a voice screams,
“Look before you leap!”
I’m half listening,
‘Coz I have miles to go before I sleep.
Despite the moonlight unfolding every step,
I know there must be surprises waiting for me.
I fear that the moon might turn away,
But voice has sworn to stay with me.
Forever, to guide me through,
And to make my dreams come true.
Life is full of surprises,
You never know what the next signal holds.
You never know what you’d discover about yourself,
As life gradually unfolds…
Life is full of surprises, you never know what the next traffic signal holds for you.. i said traffic signal because through a rush of surprises, work, emotions, drama, etc that life holds for you, you never know what you might discover about yourself.. building bridges to the next route… because as someone rightly said; “the road to success is always under construction.” and i am still on my journey of discovering a little more about myself everyday….